Heroes

HEROES...

August 2, 2009....

I was updating my profile on MySpace and ended up on a road of thought more blog appropriate… so a quick cut and paste, and voila… a blog entry which I will maintain as “Heroes” as that is where it started. Happy reading… and please toss in your take. I welcome your comments! ....

My heroes are Andre Agassi, Elton John, Neil Young, Johnny Depp, Clint Crisher, Lenny Kravitz, Gavin DeGraw... and anyone being authentic. (Guess I'm boy crazy for artist types!) What is a hero? Someone who comes to your rescue? Someone you admire? ....

I have a select list of favorite people I keep close to my heart. Each of them has been a hero of sorts to me by the influence their presence made or continually makes in my life.....

Maybe we're our own hero. In order to fully love another we must fully love and trust ourselves. That's a lot of responsibility! Communication is key and it sucks when you find yourself well into reflexive behavior you don't understand and by the time you realize it has already triggered your loved one's auto pilot defenses and the two of you have spiraled into a messy, ugly and painful state of confusion. Unconscious measurements and reflexive conditioning are biggies to overcome, but you have to if you really want to cover ground in this lifetime and experience fierce love. ....

It’s hard to dial into the subconscious so I tend to “love and clean,” Hehe, anyone who knows me can vouch for this irritating behavior. I can’t believe I’m going there… Oh well… So, it’s really simple. I embrace my vibrant heart that’s exuding love while I literally wipe away the accumulation (or list) of defenses, triggers, behaviors and unhealthy thinking I have developed or picked up along the way. I try to picture the page or white board or my mind ‘wiped clean’ of past scribbles leaving a blank slate which will allow me to be wide open and free to experience the now. Hehe! Of course some past entries must have been written with Sharpies and others with invisible ink or like hocus pocus is at play, but I'm not giving up. I've come too far and tomorrow I get to try again. Even if I fall flat on my head, I’m paying attention and have learned to laugh at myself. We mustn’t take ourselves too seriously and it’s important we maintain our sense of humor. Equally vital is that we recognize that nothing is permanent and therefore nothing warrants reaction. We could blame others or beat ourselves up or build walls to camouflage self perceived inadequacies, but none of “it” is real. All that exists is how we choose to perceive and interpret “it” and “it” quite probably doesn’t exist or as I say, “it’s a lie.” Unless “it's” life threatening, well, actually even so, our reaction is just that, not the cause so therefore we can't modify the effect. We can get tangled up and cause a stadium wave of reaction, but the situation remains the same, effect as well. ....

Basically, there are 3 parts to every interaction: 1/3 belongs to YOU: your mood, opinion, attitude, stomach growling, mind wandering, unconscious conditioning… etc., the 2^nd 1/3 belongs to THE OTHER PARTY: their values, mood, opinion, distraction of playing back earlier fight with spouse during their conversation with you, etc…. Do you follow? And the final 1/3 is SURROUNDINGS: the powers at play – the universe, the situation, circumstances, weather, fire alarm sounding, energy in the room, time, traffic, hail storm… I hope you catch my drift! ALL THAT YOU AFFECT (or have any say about) is the 1/3 that belongs to YOU. But even if you’re in a great mood and on top of the world, the OTHER PARTY and/or SURROUNDINGS may present and trigger unconscious measurements and reflexive conditioning causing you to REACT and alas, we come full circle. Whew, I really hope this makes sense. I tried to get it all down in a comprehensive manner, which was challenging considering the way that I have it sorted in my mind. ....

Like I said, this started as an update to my Myspace and before I knew it all of this came spilling out of me. I’ve been on this personal journey of discovery for a while and I will say that it sucks and hurts like hell looking back at things I handled poorly or people I may have hurt with my fear, but I am a human being and I know my intention is only that of love. Actually, no regrets and not taking things personally are other topics to fill a page, maybe next time. Back to my exercise of ‘love and clean,’ basically it’s my way of saying STOP (to myself) when old thinking enters my mind or I begin feeling unsettled. As silly as it sounds, these are big fish I’m frying and I cannot express enough how rewarding it has been thus far. …I’m not sure how to close this, so I think I won’t. When more comes to me I will simply continue. Until then, stay loving and enjoy every minute! If things get tangled, there is always music to soothe your soul!....

Music is the Reason!
...Carol




Prince - Let's Go Crazy

So when you call up that shrink in Beverly Hills, you know the one,

Dr. Everything’ll Be Alright.... - Instead of asking him how much of

your time is left… Ask him how much of your mind, baby....

‘Cause in this life, things are much harder than the afterworld…

This life, you’re on your own!....